My attachment to people

  Hi everyone,
I haven't written in a while so I thought that I would write about something that I don't really write about often in my blog. I have made bonds to many people in my life that I have always wondered to myself why is it that these people decide to stay a part of my life? I am serious when I ask this. I have strong attachments to male and female. But I realize my bond with women are stronger because they are maternal figures, I can bond with the men too just as easily. I wonder though why do you decide to stay in my life?
   I sometimes think I don't deserve to have such wonderful people in my life. No really, a lot of people don't have the courage to speak up, let alone write about something like this. I have judged myself on this for a long time, I never understood this aspect of my life. I still don't. I guess I need to stop judging and understand that this is who I am. I know some people would say that I'm special and unique, etc. But to be honest the fact that those who have remained a part of my life says a lot about your patience.
   I had therapy today, I guess this had been running in my mind as a topic of discussion for first session. I realize those in my life, besides family of course are important to me. I just wonder why this is something that is nudging at me so to speak. I am honored that so many of you are in the teaching field still. I have plenty of my past teachers who have remained in my life, a few come to my mind and I still keep in touch with some of you today. I should know the answer as to why I am the way I am without having to write on my blog. But it would mean the world to me if anyone who has played a role in my life, a teacher, a friend, etc. Why did you decide to stay in touch with me? Maybe that's a better question? I don't know?
     I am realizing that this blog makes me sound ridiculous, But it's something I wanted to get off my chest. I don't write as often as I used too back when I first started this in 2009. This is like my millionth blog entry. It feels good to have place to go and spill your guts. My writing is like music in my life it's just important to me. If everyone read this, yes I mean everyone, maybe people who didn't know this aspect of me could learn and understand. I know I have. I hope my readers and followers have a good night.